Monday, April 11, 2011 ♥
Get scolded cause i just cant hold back my tears . The feelings that i felt is sad. Really sad~ Tomorrow till end of April never get to sleep with husby and every morning when i woke up i didnt even get to see his face. I just cant stand that feeling. So sucks~ I thought that i wont get seperated with ayah again because of his stupid Ns. But i was mistaken. What to do. Its faith~ Maybe this is one test from Allah SWT.
And i swear i cant sleep. Its 230am, another 4 hours husby have to leave the house. Will be sending ayah to changi. Oh that moment... I swear i really cant hold back my tears.
My dear ayah, my love for you wont ever fade as u know i wont ever ever betray you. Not even once. My love for you is strong. Stronger than anything. Ive never been loyal before. Alhamdulillah hubungan kite kekal sampai berumah tangga dan hingga akhir hayat, selama2 nya. Insyallah~ Amin! (PS: Im thinking alot right now. My mind is not totally there~ So my english and malay abit pecah nak mampos)
Goodbye husby. U must take care of yourself during your stay there. I hope that yoor officer is kind enough to let you bookout on friday even its on ur first week of ur BMT recourse. I will always pray for you sayang. Call me whenever you're free. I will miss you so much. No one will be there for me for three weeks. No one can cook for you already. I got no one to joke around with. You're my everything. I know we sometimes quarrel about minor things. I dont care about all those things. What i care most is, you're my husband, my life, my heart, my soul, my breathe, my friend and everything. I wont regret anything spending my life with you. No stupid faces of yours. I cant see your cute face. Ur smell. Ur everything for three weeks.
Friends ??? Friends do come and go. Like seriously, i dont know what happened to people nowadays. Got problem with me come straight to me. Not by keeping or gossiping~ If they think they wanna keep whatever grudges they have towards me. I will take it as they got no guts at all. And pleaseee ~ If they think im a friend to them, anything come to me and talk . If they think they wanna keep their mouth shut and think they are doing the right thing, as ive said ill take it as they got no guts and please stay far away from me. I dont like friends who comes & go.
For now, i dont really care if i dont have any friends. Yang penting i still have my family, my in laws and especiially husband and daughter. I dont give a damn.
Husby, youre more than anything. I love you and im gonna miss you so muchhhhh~ Mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !! Husby aku cinta padamu. Cintaku padamu ikhlas sepenuh hati.
listened to the sweet sound @ 2:23 AM
